Crazy Cat Lady in the making

India,

You say the best things! You told me recently that you want to marry a cat. I had to fight the urge to tell you how ridiculous that is. you are still at an age where anything is possible and I am in no rush to deprive you of that notion.

You love to watch My Kitchen Rules (a reality cooking show). There are 2 Italian women on the show called Angela and Melina. The day they were expelled from the competition you cried yourself to sleep. I had to console you by explaining that they were now at home with their babies and families. This helped; the thought of them with their babies. You love babies (especially Tyde), but do not want any of your own. I hope that changes! You are so maternal in your approach to life. You like to help others and have good instincts. 

You are confident and very funny. We laugh alot.

You are a deep thinker. You ask questions all the time. You think about the answers i give you and speak your mind when my answers don't work for you. I love this about you. I also fear this about you, only because i like to think i will be able to solve all the problems you find along the way. I know this is unrealistic. I know we will not always agree and i will try my hardest to respect you and learn from your insight. You already teach me so much.

You challenge me in ways i never thought to dream of before becoming a parent. The day you entered this world was the day I was changed forever. My needs were no longer my own and i saw the world in a different way.. This planet was now home to the most precious human being ever created. I remember thinking about how lucky this world was to receive you... how blessed and incredibly relieved I was also! Since that day over 4 years have passed and you are evolving with time. I am learning to allow you to evolve. I have recently come to the crushing realization that my job is NOT to keep you as perfect as you were when you entered this life... my job is to hold a sacred space for you to feel love and acceptance as you fight your way through each stage of life. You are worthy of love my girl. And you are worthy of the time you choose to take to figure out who you are, who you want to become, and how the world makes sense to you.

You were made strong enough to withstand all that this life will throw at you, and even when you feel that strength betrays you, I will be here to hold your hand. I will be here until you feel strong enough to let go and step forward. Always move forward.

You expose me to a deeper level of vulnerability; I will never be the same again and I am so glad.  
I love you
Mum xoxo