lately

There have been a few changes in our home since my last post. Minutes have turned to hours, hours to days, days to weeks and before i know it a month has slipped by. That's the thing with time... it just keeps on ticking.

tick tock... 

and I have new hair ...

tick tock... 

and Reeve is walking!

tick tock... 

and India is a dancer.

tick tock... 

and Bax gets a promotion!

Life is really great and we have so much to look forward too... but I find it difficult to think too much on the future. Having been deprived of an aptitude for optimisic forsight, the future holds too many unknowns; too many uncontrollable variants; too many prospects for loss or sorrow. And despite that there are just as many prospective positive outcomes, I am a receptacle for anxiety. It is a stone that finds refuge within me. I have become a harbour for a tedious anchor of petrified assumption.  It is something I am desperate to remedy and I do recognise that this abiding fear is not the product of Deity. Rather a tool, fashioned by an adversary that is actively seeking to bring about my unhappiness. Time on this earth is fleeting and is but one breath in the bosom of Eternity. I do not want to spend it afraid! but alas... tick tock, tick tock, the clock continues.
Life and Time and change go hand in hand... but my love for my family grows stronger everyday and it will prevail. Light will always trump darkness and nothing burns brighter than my little family. Together we are building a home that is a sanctuary of hope, comfort, and soul nourishing love. A home that will {eventually} cast out fear and enable me to look forward in faith and be still.